Fasting Insulin Test & Semen Analysis Results

So, on Tuesday 6th of Nov, the clinic's lab called me to inform that my Fasting Insulin Test result is out. She said that my insulin level is quite high at 14. I asked her what's the normal, and she said 11. OK. Quite high huh? And then she asked me to get Metformin XR (XR stands for extended release), 500mg, once a day. Another name for it is Glucophage XR. OK. That sounds about right. And I assumed this instruction came from Dr. Prashant himself. I read so much about Metformin. There are 2 types. 1, Metformin. 2, Metformin XR. The difference is that Metformin XR has been reported to cause less side effects as compared to the regular Metformin. So, OK. Sounds good. This doctor really know what he's doing. hehe. Then I asked about Jaffa's Semen Analysis results, and she said I need to see the doctor for him to explain the results. OK. That evening itself, after she called I went out to get the Metformin. (Talking about determination huh?) So, first I went to Guardian and crossed my fingers there is pharmacist available there. They don't even have a "pharmacy" to begin with? Shame on you Guardian! From then on I'm convince Guardian is not the place to get medication. To get toiletries and play stuffs yes, not serious medication no. Then I go to Caring Pharmacy. There, yes. There is full-fledged pharmacy with pharmacist. Awesome! I asked for Metformin XR, the pharmacist asked me 500mg or 850mg. (Wow, he knows his stuffs! haha). He then asked me if I want it in strip, or the whole box. I asked will it be cheaper to buy the one in box. Yes. The I got it at RM44 for 60 tablets, when the price printed is RM58.70. I guess that's how much it would cost if I bought them in strips. No bad huh? This is what the packaging looks like:

So, yesterday's appointment's was set at 1.45pm. Because this consultation session involves Jaffa, so he needs to come along. He went to work really early then take the rest of the day off after the appointment. (yeay!)

Went we're in the doctor's office. Dr. Prashant explained about J's result first. He said his semen analysis result is all good. Like to count should be more than 15million per ml, his is 125 million per ml! Motility should be more than 40%, his is 68%! "Super Spermies!!" I told him. MasyaAllah Alhamdulillah.. :) Here's how the report looks like:

I'm so proud of him. Well, I never doubted his spermies performance because we were pregnant before, but we took the doctor's advise to have him checked as well. Just in case if he has any issues at all, we would tackle the problem together, simultaneously. So yeay! J is soo proud of himself, masyaAllah! He and his Olympic swimmers! :)

Then Dr. Prashant explained my Insulin Test results. My insulin is at 14. Like the clinic assistant mentioned. He was expecting it to be higher like 20 something. But it was at 14. Normal insulin level should be 6'ish, and maximum is 11. So, not too bad la.. So he asked me to take the Metformin XR, 500mg at night. And then I need to go for another Fasting Insulin Blood test within 2 weeks. Ya Allah bagusnye doctor ni. Coz I read so much on the net that ladies was on Metformin 500mg or whatever dose, and then been on it for 6 months or so, then realized it did nothing to help to regulate period and stuffs and then their doctor upped the dose, then to see some improvement. But... after 6 months? or more? But Dr. Prashant feel like I will not go down to within normal range in 2 weeks, and that's why we need to do another blood work and if there is not improvement, we'll increase the dose. OKay! Not complaining! :)

Then he mentioned that the Metformin will not help me to lose weight, it will only stop my weight from continue gaining. I need to lose weight on my own. I need to lose 10 kg. He said I should take more protein and less carbs, go on low-calorie diet. Herbalife is good. He said now my body is sugar-hungry because of the Insulin-resistant. He asked me to read on Atkin's diet and he said I should be able to lose 1kg a week, and by January I'd lost about 7 to 10 kg, with Metformin combination I will be able to get pregnant without any hormone pills. The he touch his wooden table! haha. And I said "Ameen!"

So yeah, such a cool doctor. Although he's kinda cold at first, but generally boleh buat lawak bodoh with him. From my calculation, he is like 53 years old. Pangkat ayah lah kan? But he looks young and stylish, I mean for a doctor with 20 years of experience.. OK laa.. I'll take his word about how to lose weight. 

Now... my weight-loss journey begins! May Allah make it easy, Ameen!

Infertility: Medical Intervention

So, PCOS apparently is one of the most complex female health issues of our time. The pollution, the stress, the lack of body movement, the food, the food, the food. I just had to say food thrice. The chicken that we eat which has been injected with whatever growth hormones, pesticide laden fruits and vegetable, GMO foods. SubhanAllah!

So, my journey with PCOS. I discovered I had it a few months ago. And after trying to incorporate herbs and supplements into my diet the longing to have a baby is getting stronger, I do not know whether I have the patience to wait for the herbal supplements to start working which should be around 3 to 6 months. I been a geek reading all sort of things, and I read the Metformin, a medicine which has been given to Diabetic Type 2 patients by the doctors could help to regulate period and to bring on the ovulation for PCOS sufferers. 

So I decided to find a fertility specialist. Seeing a gynaecologist is not enough as their job is mainly address other female health issues and natal care rather than the focus to get women pregnant and keep the baby till labour.

So I happen to bump into my cousin who had her 1st baby after 6 years of marriage. Asked her for her fertility doctor. She said she been to a few fertility specialist, but this doctor is the one who helped her get pregnant. His name is Dr. Prashant Nadkarni from KL Fertility Centre. Can find out more about him here.

So, I went with Jaffa. Our appointment at 10 a.m. on Wednesday last week. Nice clean clinic with nice clinic assistant. (I'll take the picture of the clinic later). Then my name is called. Dr. Prashant is OK looking, no-nonsense kinda guy, but I think it's because our first time meeting him. So, he asked me about why I'm there and here's my script:

"Well my husband and I are married last year, June 2011. I was on birth control for 1 month, and I got off it and I immediately got pregnant. No problem at all. Then I had a miscarriage in November at 14 weeks. On our 8th week we went for a check-up there was heartbeat. But then, no more heartbeat at 14 week. Had a D&C. And in late February 29 then I got my period. After that my period has gone out of whack from 35 days to 77 days. The 77 days one, the period was induced with Duphaston. And then I took Clomid. 50mg in the morning, and 50mg at night. The Clomid wasn't fun for me, I and my husband rarely fight, but when I was on Clomid, we had a huge fight over something very small and I put on almost 5kg in 1 month. And I went back to the gynae for a scan and he sees no follicle. And he suggested to double up the dose to 200mg. And that's when I decided to see a fertility specialist"

And then Dr. Prashant said, good story. (Well, I sort of rehearse my script before I met him, because I was expecting to see a very busy, high in demand doctor, so I was prepared to make sure he likes my cut-the-chase, get-to-the-point story. hehe) Glad he appreciated it.

Then we left him alone writing all the notes, and then I said to him, "Dr. Prashant, we would like to have 8 kids" and he confidently said "Yes, sure. Why not?" and you should see Jaffa's face. He was beaming!

Then we had an internal vagina ultrasound. It wasn't that bad. Just need to be relax. Then he told us that for normal women, we should see less than 6 eggs (?) in easy ovary, and he started to count it on each of my ovaries. I have about 30 on my left, and 30 on my right. Yikes! Confirmed PCOS then.

Good. Now that we know for sure the problem, let's now fix it. Now. :)

He asked both of us to go for a test. Blood test for me, and sperm analysis for Jaffa. (Good sign of a good fertility dorctor. My friend went through many many painful tests to find out she alright, and after 7 years realised it was her husband who had low motility, low count spermies)

So he asked me to go on a blood test because he suspects I am insulin-resistant. And he said that if it confirms then he will give me a medicine that will usually fix the problem. And I asked him, "Is it Metformin?" he said "Yes, wow you know.." and I said "Yeah, I've been a geek, reading all sorts of stuffs" :)

So yeah. The medical bill was RM 450. Here's the breakdown:

Consultation RM 100

Scanning/Ultrasound RM 100

Fasting Insulin Test RM 150

Semen Analysis RM 100.

Not bad for a infertility specialist who has got Dato' title, and has 20 years of experience huh? So we happily paid for it, and left. We went in again the next day for my fasting insulin test and to deposit Jaffa's semen for testing. Result should be out on Monday, 5th November.

At this point of writing this it's already 5th November. I called the clinic just now and the assistant said that once the test result is out, they will give me a call.

Now I wait.

Overcoming PCOS... Head on!

I've been a geek. A total geek. Reading all sorts of stuffs regarding PCOS and all the matter about it. From all my readings, I also started taking a lot of supplements and herbs for it; because PCOS is a combination of many symptoms. And I am taking herbs and supplement that could help to address and suppress those symptoms. Check this out:

I am taking:

1) FertilAid

2) Fertile CM

3) GTF Chromium

4) Milk Thistle

5) Dong Quai

6) Cinnamon

7) Saw Palmetto

amongst others including Multivitamin, Vitamin C & Herbatus Sauda & FertiliTea

A lot right? I will talk about their benefit in next post.

But insyaAllah those will start to take shape and start to work soon, as herbal supplements usually will take about 3 months to show the benefits. So, I will try to be istiqamah and take it diligently everyday until my ovulation & menses is regulated. 

Leftover Ayam Percik Whomeal Pizza

Assalamualaikum (may peace be onto you)

We have Pizza Hut, Dominos Pizza, California Pizza, San Francisco Pizza (near my house, it looks empty and sad most of the time), Papa John's (a little expensive for the rather small servings) and I am not sure what else have we? They are all pretty much expensive, and we do not know what kinda cheese they use (for all we know they might be some cheese flavoured flour! I dunno!).

But once I discovered this super easy pizza dough recipe, fool-proof, it is only during "darurat" times we will go for all those fast food pizza! hehe. Jaffas and I can eat up this whole big pan of pizza all to ourselves. Yarms. Alhamdulillah.

Recipe: Leftover Ayam Percik Wholemeal Pizza
Prep Time: 30 mins
Cook Time: 25 mins

For the Pizza Dough

• 2 cups flour (for this recipe I used wholemeal flour)
• 18gram yeast or approx 2 & 1/4 teaspoon instant yeast 
• 1 teaspoon caster sugar (I use raw sugar)
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1 tablespoon oil (I use extra virgin olive oil)
• 3/4 cup warm water (make sure this the water is warm, not room temperature) 

How-to:

1. Mix all the dry ingredient in a big mixing bowl
2. Then add in the wet ingredient.
3. By using hands knead the dough until it is well incorporated (approximately 6 minutes)
4. Then cover the bowl with cling wrap or tea towel, and leave it in a warm area for about 30 minute. Let it rise to double it size. While waiting, prepare the toppings
5. After it has risen, roll it out t whatever shape and size and pile on toppings!

For topping

• 4 tablespoon tomato paste
• 1 tablespoon mixed Italian herbs (I use MasterFoods Spaghetti Bolognese mix - picture below)
• 
  
• 1 cup Mozzarella cheese
• 1 cup Parmesan cheese
• then the toppings could be anything. In this recipe, I use shredded ayam percik, onion, fresh mushroom, pineapple, & green bell peppers. 

How-to:

1. Have the rolled-out pizza dough ready
2. Mix the tomato paste & Italian herbs and spread it on top of the pizza dough
3. Sprinkle whatever ingredient that need less cooking at the bottom, and most cooking on the top.
4. For me I go green bell peppers first, mushroom, pineapple, ayam percik, onion.
5. Then sprinkle the cheeses on top like A LOT (we love love love cheese!)
6. The pop it in the pre-heated oven, 180 degrees Celsius for 25 mins. Siappp! :)

Owh. This is the Italian Herbs:

Selamat mencuba! :)

A Note of Love to All My Single Sisters

Last night my husband & I went for grocery shopping and we bought not-so-glamorous stuffs for the house like floor cleaner, cooking oil & rice; and then it struck me that we’re so married! Hehe... Alhamdulillah… It got me thinking of the things that I would do instead last night if I was still single; and it reminds me of my single friends who (I assume) like me once – waiting, hoping & looking for Mr. Right. Yes, I was all that, waiting, hoping & looking, and now when Allah sends my husband to me,for me, it happened so quickly, so fast, we were married within two-and-a-half months after the first day we laid eyes on each other! How did it happen? It’s Allah’s decree, no doubt. Alhamdulillah..

Before I deep-dive further into my marriage, I feel that I need to do my part to share with you bits and pieces of advice on the journey of finding ‘the one’. Please take this from my own experience and observation and it is not anyway to be treated like 'the checklist', but I think it will help insyaAllah.

#1 – Be Fair

A friend of mine told me that ‘we’ll get who we deserve’, and many years later I realized and come to my wisdom that it’s true; and to me, it’s even written in the Quran that: “…women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity is for women of purity” – Qur’an 24:26. So ladies, before we list down our criteria in a man that we’re looking for, like “Dia mestilah seorang yang bertanggung jawab, beriman & menghormati orang tua etc., do reflect again are we all that in the first place? Are we responsible? Are we pious? Are we respectful to the elders?

#2 – Hook Up with Allah & Allah will Hook You Up

We are Muslims. And we know that Allah is the Creator and He holds our future, our life. And only from Him we could be guided to find the one, the right one, the good one. So do check out this great article on the explanation of Hook Up with Allah & Allah will Hook you Up. I hold this concept true to my heart during my single days and hopefully you'll find it beneficial too insyaAllah.

http://www.suhaibwebb.com/personaldvlpt/hook-up-with-allah-allah-will-hook-you-up/

#3 – Be Proactive

When I and a few other friends were single, we are inspired by the story of our Mother of the Believers, Khadijah Binti Khuwailid r.a. There is an article on it, which is “Just Because Khadijah Ask” and one of the excerpts in the article says:

“Khadijah asked. Khadijah, may Allah’s Mercy be upon her, asked about Prophet Muhammad for marriage. She initiated the communication. She sent someone on her behalf to find out if he was available for marriage. And it was because she asked, that she got that blessed answer. And with that answer, was the beginning of the of the greatest stories of love for all times, and also one of the greatest examples of a true muhsina and mumina. A woman older than him, previously married with children, was inquiring about a younger bachelor, from one of the best tribes in town.  The honor of his acceptance wasn’t just hers alone. It was his too. He was going to marry one of the most beautiful hearts in all of Mecca. A woman who’s heart would sacrifice everything she had to support him, and Islam. Khadijah asked.”

Check out this website for the article:

http://muslimmatters.org/2010/08/02/because-khadijah-asked-an-alternative-path-to-meeting-mr-right/

I’m not saying just get out there and ask any male passers-by if they’re single and looking; but be truthful to begin with. The next time your aunts asking you when you’re getting married?; instead of replying “I just want to focus on my career for now”, please remove your ego and say “I have not found one, why not you introduce me to someone Aunty? I am ready to settle down.” They will usually quickly think of someone for you, or the at least they will think of you when the next time any of her friends start asking for any single girls to marry their bachelor sons, and if that doesn't happen too, the very least they will stop asking you when and that will lift unnecessary pressure.

Besides that, be active in community service, environmental projects, language classes, or any halal activities of your interest. You’d tend to meet more people outside your regular circle of friends, and raise the possibilities of meeting the one; and best of all he will share the same interest as you. Sharing the same interest is always a good thing to begin with.

#4 – He will be the Father of Your Children

I went for a talk by Yunus Kathrada, he told us a story of a man who went to see a Syeikh to seek advice on his newborn child. Which is good to always seek advice, but the Syeikh responded to the man “It’s too late”. Why? The Syeikh said that the process of raising an excellent child begins even before we get married - by selecting a good spouse to begin with. I have heard stories about girl meets boy at Hard Rock Café, at Zouk nightclub and what else have we. I cannot say that couples met at all these places would be heading to a crappy marriage, but think about it. Don’t we all want a good beginning for our union that would bear us pious and righteous kids in the future?

For a very good lecture on this, it brought tears to my eyes. Allahuakbar. Please YouTube search this: "Mufti Menk parent~child relationship"

Maybe what I'm trying to say also is, all human are born with a fitrah, an innate feeling of returning to the Almighty Allah. No matter how naughty we are at a point of our lives, at the back of our heads I'm sure we'll be thinking "I will repent and return to Allah one day". But, if girl meets boy at nightclub, and then they get married, years later the girl feels like she wants to get closer to Allah while the boy still would like to party; then we'll see a problem when the girl starts going to religious classes and want to go for Umrah, while her husband refuse to even pray his solat. Which of the parents will the children look up to and follow? Let's think far, and choose wisely. 

Besides that, observe his temperament & his reaction towards children – the last thing you would want when you’re married with 3 kids crying in your arms, you ask for his help with the kids and he says.. “You know right honey, me and kids just don’t gel”…

#5 – Eliminate, Banish Your Baggage

I believe there is wisdom for free-mixing and dating is haraam in Islam. We all know that GF-BF concept is superficial; we will never get to know the true color of someone until we live with them – day in, day out. If you are still not convinced that dating is haram, the are a lot of hadiths to prove it, but I will share one here that I feel so strong about:

It was narrated that Ma’qil ibn Yassaar said: the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “For one of you to be stabbed in the head with an iron needle is better for him than that he should touch a woman who is not permissible for him.” 

-Narrated by al-Tabaraani in al-Kabeer, 486. Shaykh al-Albaani said in Saheeh al-Jaami’, 5045, that this hadeeth is saheeh. 

Don't tell me people who "couple" and "date" don't even touch each other. Dating/couple/in a relationship is haram my dears. Fear Allah and seek for his help to give you strength to do the right thing.

And to me, the other ugly side of this “dating” relationship is, it does not always have the happy ending. I have heard stories of a bride crying on her wedding day when her ex-boyfriend called her up for a last good bye, some still can’t get over their exes even after having children; some still secretly get in touch with their exes just to ask “How have you been”?” subhanAllah… May Allah protect us from this.

If you still have issues or still cannot get over an ex, deal with it now. It will fog-up your path to find the one, and you will always have the shadow of your ex over your decision on moving on with another man. You would only want to have a vision of you and your husband and your kids in the future, and not the thought of “How would it be if I marry him instead?” Wise up, girls!

#6 – Be Selective, Not Picky

I believe there is a fine line between being selective and picky. To me, if you decline a proposal from a guy that is pleasing to the eyes, well mannered and has a stable income; but he smokes & you realized that he seldom attends Friday prayers, then yes you're being selective. But if you decline a proposal from a guy that is pleasing to the eyes, well mannered, has stable income, doesn't smoke, and is Allah-fearing, but he is a mommy's boy (or he's balding, or he has an interesting hobby of collecting dried leaves) then you're being picky.

Key thing to remember here “Deal Breaker”. If he has or lacks of certain pivotal quality/characteristic that you cannot live with/without then it is big reason not to marry him. For example, if you know you're a career driven person and have major career ambitions but your potential husband wants you to eventually quit your job to look after the kids then that's the “Deal Breaker”. But please do not confuse deal breaker with differences. For example, if you like to eat Japanese and hates Italian food but he cannot bear the thought of eating raw fish but loves pasta, this is not deal breaker. Both of your can still work around differences and it is silly to have a big fight over which restaurant to go have dinner. But “Deal Breakers” are something that could most likely put a strain in a marriage in which failing to manage could lead to divorce. See the significance?

However, please try not to overanalyze and being hypercritical. Another key thing to remember is: Nobody Is Perfect, and no sayang, not even you.

#7 – Be Ready to Give (Up)

Marriage is not all about sex. It's not all about him showering you with endless love and affection. It's not all about cuddling & curling up together in the bed every night. Yes, it is all that, but it is not all and everything about that. It's not all about you! Marriage needs sustenance, and it does not come for free, you need to work for it. You need to give. Just like how we expect our men to know manly stuffs like how to change the car tyre when it punctures or know to repair a leaking pipe or how to assemble a DIY baby cot; I'm sure men would also expect the wives to know womanly stuffs like how to cook, how to do laundry properly and perhaps iron man's work clothes.

Of course most of us could say that it's the modern world now, women don't need to know how to cook and clean and that we can get a maid to do all that. But would you really want to get a maid to cook your husband's meals & iron your husband's work shirts? I know it's easier said than done, but who say that to maintain a happy marriage is effortless & easy?

Ready to give, includes being ready to give up. Do you have male friends who you often hang with, or who to you “we're just friends?” or “we've been friends for so long he's like a brother to me”? Guess what? After you're married, I would need to advice you to give them up like a bad habit. I know along the years we have made so many friends including guy friends, but once we're married we CANNOT hang out with them anymore. I am not saying we cannot be friends anymore, but it is with loads of limitation. I trust that you would use your wisdom on how to draw the line. Even though you future husband is the “coolest” guy on earth (and Allah forbids) he allows you hang out with any of your guys friends, once you're being seen by other people hanging out with another guy other than your husband, you've lit a spark for fitnah and speculation which will spread like wildfire. Imagine a neighbour saw you walking with your male friend at a mall, and she tells your mother in-law. High voltage drama huh?

Trust. Could take years to build, but only a minute to destroy.

#8 - It's Him Not His Money

So, he drives a BMW and earns RM20k a month? OR So, he drives his father's first car and don't really have a proper job? BUT I say So what?

Often times girls will look for a man that is wealthy and rich - that's completely common. Its a biological and psychological thing. We need look for men that can "hunt & gather" to provide security, shelter and food to take care of us and our young. It's a survival thing.

However, either he is rich or broke; he is actually rich or broke NOW. Who are we to say that their wealth will be there forever, or that they will earn very little money for lifetime? The key point to stress, is his deen (iman) & character. Does he have the right knowledge and iman to guide you and your young. Does he have maturity and good character to endure the challenges of the world and maried life? They say money is the #1 cause of divorce nowadays. But do you think it's the money or how the married couple deal and manage when they're stuck in a situation that involves money?

I am not saying, go into marriage blindly but please use your wisdom and not your desire. He may not have much today, but if you see that he has the willpower to work hard to earn a better living and you believe with all your heart that Allah is All Provider, insyaAllah you'll be fine.

For me, during the ta'aruff (introduction meeting) with my then-not-yet-husband, I asked him about his education. To me and maybe to a lot of parents education is key. Personally, I don't mind if he is a burger flipper at Ramly Burger (he's not by the way), but if he has a qualification, or a degree or something, insyaAllah he has something to fall back on. I didn't ask him about how much he's earning or anything like that, because it's not important to me. Have faith in Allah that He is The All Provider.

From Umar ibn Al-Khattab from the Prophet (sas) who said:

"If only you relied on Allah a true reliance, He would provide sustenance for you just as He does the birds: They fly out in the morning empty and return in the afternoon with full stomachs."

Ahmad, An-Nasaa’I, Ibn Majah, Al-Hakim and At-Tirmidhi who said: "Hassan sahih"

#9 – Know the Rights of Husband & Obligations of Wife, Vice Versa.

A lot of us dreams of getting married one day to wear nice dress on the wedding day. But after the wedding day is over a whole new world of responsibilities await you and him. Both husband and wife has a list of responsibilities within the Islamic guidelines. Read them up, study them. By abiding to this guidelines, almost certainly we can maintain a happy marriage by the will of Allah.

But often, during tense and trying times the husband and wife would usually accuse each other of not full filling his/her rights. For example the husband would say “You should beautify yourself for me and not look like a mess at home!”; and the wife would say something like “You're supposed to provide a home for us, but we been living with your housemate for months now!”

A key guideline to this is to prioritize your obligations as a wife and to respect the rights of the husband. And vice versa of course. Know your obligations, what you should do, your responsibilities BEFORE thinking about your rights, his obligations, what he should do and his responsibilities.

So now.. can you manage to fulfill all your obligations? Are you such a strong-headed person that would be able to listen to your husbands advice? Do you have the right attitude to be kind to your husband? Do you still think that after you're married you can do whatever you want and allow anybody into your house without your husband's permission? What would you do if you have a long tiring day at work but you need to fulfill your husband's physical desire? Do you have the right motivation to beautify yourself (at home) to be pleasing to his eyes with your appearance? Basically, do we have the right mindset to strive to be a good wife? Or do we still think it's all about me, me, me?

Please ponder on this hadith:

Qays ibn Sa'd Narrated: I went to al-Hirah and saw them (the people) prostrating themselves before a satrap (governor of a province in ancient Persia) of theirs, so I said: The Apostle of Allah (peace_be_upon_him) has most right to have prostration made before him. When I came to the Prophet (peace_be_upon_him), I said: I went to al-Hirah and saw them prostrating themselves before a satrap of theirs, but you have most right, Apostle of Allah, to have (people) prostrating themselves before you. He said: Tell me , if you were to pass my grave, would you prostrate yourself before it? I said: No. He then said: Do not do so. If I were to command anyone to make prostration before another I would command women to prostrate themselves before their husbands, because of the special right over them given to husbands by Allah. [Hadith: Sunan Abu Dawud, 11:2135]

Heavy. I know... :(

But marriage is such a pure & beautiful thing that if we fulfill every obligations for the sake of Allah, we shall be rewarded for every effort insyaAllah.

Ibn Hibban narrated that the Prophet(Sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) said, “If a woman prayed five prayers, fasted in Ramadan, protected her honor and obeyed her husband; then she will be told (on the Day of Judgment): enter Paradise from any of its(eight) doors.”

insyaAllah...Yeay!! :D

#10 – It is the Marriage, Not the Wedding

I think we heard countless times that engaged couples are putting off marriage because they do not have enough money to hold the wedding. If you're imagining a wedding with rotating wedding cake, nasi minyak lobster menu, tents decorated with thousands of tulips from Amsterdam, haute couture Vera Wang wedding dress and French Riviera honeymoon (ok, I'm exaggerating here but you get the picture) - then no wonder why you need to put off your wedding.

But my dears, it's really not all about the wedding. Some of my friends asked me whether it was the happiest day of my life; I had a little trouble answering that because leading after the wedding is what matters more to me. The whole lifetime with this person that you should treat him as part of you; and build a family with children whom are the coolness of our eyes. InsyaAllah.. and that thought itself could make one very happy.

It's not about the wedding stuffs. I remember people who attended my wedding and the precious moments. How I was overwhelmed with emotions when my dad hugged me tightly before the akad nikah & my mom whispered "you'll always be my baby" during the akad nikah ceremony. And the happiest thing I could remember on my wedding day was holding his hand for the very first time. That was surreal, I loved it so much. See? I don't remember much about the wedding stuffs; although they're really nice - the dress, the pelamin, the bunga telur, Alhamdulillah, but I don't remember that time and again.  I always have this theory, the longer it takes to prepare a wedding the harder it gets to let the wedding itself go... After 1 year (or even more) of preparing, it will all be over in 2 days, and you'd go.. "That's it? That's The wedding?" So please, once you have met the right person to marry, go ahead with it – quickly.

Some really good books on preparing yourselves for marriage, I would recommend:

1. The Muslim Family Series by Muhammad Mustafa al-Jibaly

2. The Ideal Muslimah by Dr. Muhammad Ali Al Hashimi

Can get them from Dakwah Corner Bookstore -  http://www.dakwahbookstore.com.my

Some really good speakers I love listening to (YouTube them):

1. Mufti Menk

2. Nouman Ali Khan

3. Abu Mussab Wadji Akkari

So there you go. A little note of love from the quite newly married me to all my single sisters. I always make du'a for Allah to hasten the jodoh for all my single sisters with a pious and great men who will be the coolness of their eyes. Please make loads of du'a for yourselves too. Never lose hope in the mercy of Allah.  “Hook up with Allah and Allah will hook you up”, remember? :)

A wife is like a gift to a man. And there is a hadith that goes like this:

"This world is just temporary conveniences, and the best comfort in this world is righteous women.” - Sahih Muslim 10/56.

So prepare yourself to be a gift (and not a test) to your future husband, so that one day he will hold you and look lovingly in your eyes and say “Alhamdulillah”.

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Please make doa for Allah to shower me & my family with His mercy and keep us steadfast on the right path. Ameen

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